Make up my mind!
The weather has been a little wonky. It’s hot, cold, hot, cold, hot. This morning it was freezing cold when I went to the bank. I came home tried to go back to sleep and ended up failing miserably. Kai, Fumiko and I left to go grocery shopping at about 4pm. I had put my jeans and hoodie back on thinking it was still freezing. Nope it was extremely hot. I wish mother nature would make up her mind already. I’d love it if you let the weather stay cold.
I miss Sascha. I don’t know if I say it that much. I sure think about it a lot. His birthday is coming up on November 2nd. This will be the first birthday I’ve missed which makes me sad. Kai and I picked him up a small birthday gift today. We got him a Lego Hero Factory, Surge Bionicle. When I talked to him on Sunday he said one of the things he wanted was some legos. So we got him that and a $20 gift card to Target. That way he can pick something out that he really wants. They had some super cute Paul Frank wrapping paper as well. Hopefully Sascha enjoys it. I can’t believe he’s going to be 9 in less than a month. I wanted to get him a Squishable Android. But unfortunately we couldn’t afford the extra money for it right now. So my plan is to get it for him for christmas. I miss him. So does Fumiko. She’s talking more now and has been saying “Bother come home?” “Shasha come home now?”. Which is cute and breaks my heart at the same time. I keep telling her he’ll be home after school. She knows his birthday is coming up, and keeps getting one of the cupcake tins and says “Make Shasha cake?”. I’m half tempted to make him some birthday cupcakes anyways, just because maybe it’ll make Fumiko feel better. I don’t know we’ll see. I have to talk to Kharizma also and find out how we’re going to do the cupcakes for her wedding. I also need to get some cake flour and find a bigger frosting tip.
This morning my mom and I went to the bank to close some accounts and a safety deposit box, which we meant to do awhile ago. For some reason an old business account which had issues with theft was never closed? So we closed that, I closed my old bank account, and we turned in the keys for the deposit box.
I’ve been having some issues sleeping. By issues I mean I can’t sleep. I’ve been falling asleep finally between 5 and 8am. Which is excruciating. I’ve always been a night owl. I don’t know why but I’ve never been able to get my biological clock to need sleep during normal hours. I’ve tried so many times going to bed at a normal hour only to lay in bed tossing and turning and uncomfortable until very late. Well lately it’s been really bad and it’s driving me nuts. I’ve tried various over the counter sleep aids, both natural and not. Nothing seems to work. The non natural sleep aids make me feel horribly hungover the next day and don’t actually help me sleep. I used to be able to fall asleep by 2am at the latest, but it’s gotten worse over the last few months. So have the migraines. Really though, who in their right mind has the most energy at 2 in the morning? Ugh. So I’ve been trying to get things done around the house and online late at night. Housework is a little difficult since everyone else is sleeping. Well most everyone else. Ben stays up late too, he just hides in his room like some creepy hermit.
I will say some of the late night tv is… strange. I had no idea Friday the 13th had a series. I caught part of an episode the other night. It was about some cursed quilt and some Amish cult. It was really creepy. I’ve also seen a large variety of substance abuse shows, which I have to admit have been pretty informative and interesting. I saw a show about inhalant abuse and also watched some things about opiate detox. I also saw Billy the Exterminator for the first time the other night. Which I must say was pretty awesome and disgusting at the same time.