I feel really alone right now. Actually I have for the past few weeks. I won’t go into detail. But it hurts. The one person I want to be with doesn’t seem to get it. It’s not easy to feel alone in a house full of people.
I’ve been trying to keep myself busy. Trying to not feel down. But it’s hard. I’ve been adding a photo daily to my photo blog, which I actually updated. I am proud of myself. How long will it last? Who knows. But at least it’s happening now. I emailed Sue and got her address for Sascha’s gift and things. My period finally started 2 days late. As of now… there isn’t much cramping. Here’s to hoping it stays that way. Today I woke up with serious muscle/bone pain. My mom ended up coming up to help me get dinner ready and watch Fumiko so I could get some stuff done. We had teriyaki salmon, rice and homemade pickled cucumbers for dinner. It was alright. I feel kind of meh. That’s the only way I know how to describe it.
It’s starting to get chilly again. After being warm… again. Hopefully it gets cold enough to dig the electric blanket out. Hopefully. Fumiko just woke up and snuck into our bed. She’s been doing that off and on. Sometimes I let her stay, but tonight I think it’s back into her own bed.