Really stomach…? Really?

I think I somehow picked up a stomach bug. Or something. This morning I woke up feeling like I was going to throw up, which was quickly followed by me running to the bathroom to have bowel issues. While bowel issues don’t bother me so much, throwing up is an entirely different story. I have a huge, read that HUGE fear of vomiting. I almost choked to death on vomit on my 15th birthday. I got really sick and my body just wouldn’t stop throwing up. I’m not sure what happened but I couldn’t breathe and felt like I was choking and ended up inhaling some. It was terrifying. To this day I panic when I feel like I’m going to be sick. Not to mention the sight, sound or smell of vomit makes me have to vomit. Ugghh. :SICK:

Yesterday I got my braces off. It was bittersweet. I would have liked to wait until my teeth were finished, but that wouldn’t have been wise. Most of you should know by now that I have Lyme disease. It can and does wreak havoc on your teeth. As of right now, I have 2 missing fillings, a broken tooth, several small cavities, several teeth with erosions, 4 crowns that need to be replaced, and 1 tooth that hurts extremely bad down into my jaw. To be fair, the broken tooth is one missing a filling. It broke after the filling fell out. The tooth that hurts, is also the other one missing a filling. My teeth literally eroded all around the brackets, on every tooth that isn’t a crown. I was told that 4 of my teeth with crowns appear to have tooth decay under the crown, because my gums have been destroyed. I have some cavities clear up under the gum line, and a few around where the brackets were.

It’s extremely frustrating and upsetting. I brush 2-3 times a day, I floss regularly, my teeth are clean, seriously they’re squeaky clean, I dare you to come test them. Yet they look like I don’t take care of them at all. My mouth is so dry, which is one of the main reasons my teeth are falling apart. Your saliva helps to protect your teeth, it can’t do that if it doesn’t exist. My ortho actually had me sit there and drink a small cup of water, then immediately checked my mouth. Dry as cotton. He told me to drink another cup so I did. He checked again. His response? “Well this is going to pose some long term problems.” Ya think? I’ve been trying to tell them for 3 years now that I have lyme disease and I can’t help what is happening to my mouth and assured them time and time again that I take care of my mouth. What do you say when the dental hygienist cleans your teeth and says they’re clean, there’s virtually no plaque build up, but you need to clean your teeth better. HOW, how do I clean them better? Tell me. What do I do? Because I’m doing everything that I can, I have no control over what is happening to my teeth. It’s nothing that I am doing wrong.

I miss my old dentist. He was familiar with lyme disease, he understood what was going on, and never lectured me, or made me feel bad. He just tried to help. Come back to Oregon! My orthodontist only freaked out because I told him I switched to a natural tooth soap that was fluoride and baking soda free. After everything, he tried to tell me that it was worth my mouth breaking out in sores and being in pain to keep my teeth “healthy”. Really? Have you seen my teeth? Because they aren’t healthy, and I’ve only been using tooth soap for a few weeks. Before that I was torturing myself trying to use the fluoride paste he gave me, and toothpaste with baking soda. He does realize right, that baking soda will destroy the gums over time, in a normal person with health teeth and gums. Ugh. My mouth is no longer breaking out in blisters or bleeding sores, and my teeth feel more clean using natural tooth soap than they’ve ever felt using regular or natural toothpaste. I’ve used the fluoride paste for 2 and a half years, and my teeth have continued to decline. I would say I gave it a fair shot, wouldn’t you?

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I run this blog! This blog is a personal blog for all things beauty related. I love swatching, reviewing and hosting giveaways. I've been blogging since I was 16 years old... That's uh a long time. I am now 34! Sometimes I like to blog about my life and what is going on, but not often anymore. I hope you enjoy my blog posts!