It’s been a baaaad day
At my last doctors visit on Wednesday she took me off the Etodolac and put me on Gabapentin which is a generic form of Neurontin. It’s actually an epilepsy medication designed to stop seizures, but it also works with nerve pain. So it’s supposed to help with the numbness, pins & needles, burning, etc. She also wants me to see a neurologist now. She actually seemed to kind of listen to me this time. Though she did tell me I didn’t tell her about all these sensations at my last visits… Which I did, both times and I told her it was written down on my symptom sheets that I gave her.
So I started taking Gabapentin on Wednesday. It seemed to help, it relieved the burning sensation all over my body, it helped with the pins & needles, and it made me really fucking loopy and drunk. The only thing I really remember is flinging my head back and hitting it on the wall. I remember that because it hurt like hell the next day. Last night I took one, same results, it helped and made me loopy. I’m glad that it’s helping a little bit, but it’s not helping with the other pains I have. It is allowing me to sleep though. I was supposed to take 1 capsule at bedtime for 4 days, then add one in the morning for 4 days, then take 1 3x a day. Well it seems that after it wears off, my body hurts more. So I spent most of yesterday in horrible pain and in bed, and was extremely car sick taking Kai to work. The pain was so bad this morning and today that I actually took one at lunchtime. I tried to wait, but I just couldn’t, and I can’t take any otc pain relievers while I’m on this, so I couldn’t take my migraine pills, and it was killing me.
Last night I also felt like I was sick, like I’d picked up a stomach bug or something, but I’m not sure if it was a bug, or the medication. Today I feel even worse and have been throwing up along with everything else and dealing with horrible stomach and intestinal pains. These are side effects of the medication, but I can’t tell what it is. So I guess my only choice is to work through this? I’m freezing cold which is the opposite of how I normally feel. I’m just a mess today and really frustrated. Another I guess side effect of this medication is the increased risk of Suicide. Yes, it’s listed as a side effect on the papers the pharmacy gave me. So I’m paranoid about that too. I’m not going down that road and if I start feeling like I’m getting depressed on this medication it’s over. I’m not going to risk that just for some minor pain relief.
I still need to call and make an appointment with Dr. Nigh for a consultation, but I just have been up to it. I’m still exhausted from the trip to NARA and this medication is kicking my ass. I meant to write a post saying I felt like shit today, I guess it turned into a little more, or at least a long post explaining why I feel like shit. I think I’ll try to sleep this off, if I can. I hate puking, it scares the crap out of me and makes me panic. I fear that I’m going to choke to death while puking. When I was 15 I got so sick and was throwing up so violently that I inhaled when I was throwing up and started choking, so this fear stems from that and I’ve never been able to get over it.