EDIT HAHAHA Kharizma has already offered to come over Wednesday and bleach my hair. /EDIT Alright. I have a box of bleach sitting in my bathroom closet. Every time I look at it I want to grab it and bleach my hair… I’m even starting to have dreams about it now. Seriously last night I dreamt that I bleached my hair and dyed it pink. It was so real I was upset and a little teary eyed when I woke up and realized my hair was still the same. So here’s my issue. At this point I seriously don’t know what effects my skin anymore. Sometimes things that have bothered me don’t irritate my skin, sometimes things I’ve used for ages without issue make me break out. So while I’m desperate to bleach and dye my hair[1. seriously I don’t know if you can understand but it’s this overwhelming need to do it so I can be me, who I’m supposed to be. Ugh. It makes me teary eyed just thinking about it. I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin. I don’t feel normal. I want that feeling back, and I feel that way with pink hair.] I’m also a little afraid, because I don’t know if it will cause my scalp to break out or not. It’s been over a year since I’ve used anything but temporary dye in my hair.
If I do it. I’ll wait until I can get some Cupcake Pink dye and mixer/toner from Morgana. But like seriously, Kharizma if I do this can you um come over and sit with me and take me to the ER if necessary[2. yes I am actually kind of worried it could cause serious pain. Kai even told me if I do it to make sure Kharizma is here so I don’t die. haha And yes it is sad that I’m a little worried hair dye might hurt me… ] and you know make sure the bleach doesn’t kill me? Also can you help me with my roots in the future? Because I’ve never been able to just dye my roots.
So here’s where you come in? What the hell do I do? Kai said to do what made me happy, which would be bleaching my hair. haha Knowing me, I’m probably going to take the chance anyways. I hate my natural hair and I don’t feel comfortable at all without pink hair. My hair was pink for most of my sons life, I miss it. My logic is, my nail polish doesn’t seem to bother my skin, the remover doesn’t, sooooo hair dye should be okay, right? :? Also if I do bleach it and it doesn’t kill my scalp and I hate it, I can do what I did before. Dye it brown and let it grow out.
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