Today has been awful
Technically it started last night. Fumiko has this little ladybug wheely cart thing, which she calls her buggie. She’s mostly outgrown it and leaves it lying around. Yesterday she kept sitting on it in our room while watching tv. I’d asked her to take it out which she did because I tripped over it twice. Apparently she brought it back in before she went to bed. Well. She woke up crying last night and I jumped up to run in there and see what was wrong and didn’t see it. I stepped down with my foot inside the handle and I’m not entirely sure how it happened but the handle came up and slammed into my calf muscle while it was tensed and the wooden lip crushed the top of my foot. I seriously thought I broke my foot/ankle/leg/something from the pain. My muscle immediately cramped up and had a huge knot in it and I couldn’t move. My foot swelled up and had a massive bruise on the top of it. Kai had to help me to bed because I couldn’t straighten out my leg because of my calf muscle and couldn’t put weight on my leg if my muscle hadn’t been in so much pain. It still hurts and I can’t put all of my weight on it. The muscle is in so much pain it’s not funny and I can’t step down on my flat foot without horrible pain shooting up my leg bone. Thankfully the swelling and bruise have gone down on my foot so much so you can hardly see it. Still, it hurts like a mofo and I’m pretty sure I damaged my calf muscle somehow. And my back is doing something fierce with the back spasms. And due to the pain I couldn’t sleep, so I didn’t end up getting to sleep until almost 6am.
That aside, Fumiko managed to find my burgundy hair dye and got it in a 2 foot radius on the living room floor and was covered in it when I woke up. The carpet is dark brown but you can clearly see where it’s dyed a red color now. After trying to clean that mess up I came back in our room to find that the cat had completely cleared off my side table, except for my mirror and the tv remote. I made fish soup for lunch. But I’m guessing due to cleaning the carpet my hands/fingers were weak, and I couldn’t freaking hardly get the pouches of frozen tilapia open, or the plastic wrap off the frozen cod. So when I tried to open the ramen for Kai my fingers and hands just wouldn’t work, and I couldn’t get it open. They just wouldn’t work. That was kind of my breaking point. I was already stressed about the carpet and my leg being in so much pain, and I was already freaking sore and nervous that I just lost it and started crying and had to go ask Kai to open the freaking ramen. Now? Now I just feel worn down, and worn out, my nerves are shot, I’m so tired, and so sore I feel sick. Even the gabapentin doesn’t seem to be helping at all, except that it’s making me so cold my fingers are kind of purple. But I hurt, and my body feels swollen and it burns and aches and blah.