I’m not sacrificing my life to an illness
I’m not. I rearranged our room today. Got stuff sorted and organized and I may or may not have taken husbands dresser apart and took it outside. I’m sure he’s going to kill me but oh well. Anyways. I decided to take a bath because my back was spasming and I was cold. I opened the drain for the water to drain. I just sat there staring at my feet after all the water drained out. Then it hit me. I’ve been allowing my illness to basically sacrifice my life. I refuse to do that any more. I’m basically going to live my life like I am dying. If I’m gonna go down it’s gonna be in flames. There’s so much I want to do and be and live. I’m not living a life right now. I’m living around an illness. Ain’t happenin’ no more. Nope. That is all. Yay to bath tub revelations.