Yeah I couldn’t think of a title. Sooo things have been rather crappy, and I’m rather tired and ill. I’m still getting over the serotonin syndrome. My pancreas is non-functioning right now because of it, but my doctor hopes with enough insulin therapy it’ll be able to heal. I also managed to get strep, and then pneumonia. The antibiotic I’m on right now is kicking my ass, I swear it’s making me worse. I’m sure it’s just me herxing on it that makes me feel like death, but bleh. My period also started AGAIN on the antibiotics. Double, no triple whammy? I don’t know anymore. I feel like crap.
On that note, a lot of the stress and anxiety and fear happening right now is due to our financial situation. It’s been really hard, we’re lucky Kai found a job, but it’s only minimum wage, and his first check was $245 if I remember right. He gets paid weekly, which is nice, but he needs to get promoted to earn more monies. His check isn’t going to go far when we have $700-ish in shut off notices, and $1150 for rent all due on the 15th, and our bank account is completely drained. I don’t know what’s going to happen, or how we’re going to make it and it’s really scary. At this rate we need a miracle. Between feeling like crap from the lyme, and the period, and the pneumonia, and this, ugh. My nerves are shot and it’s all I can do not to cry all the time. I know it will work out, but right now it seems hopeless and I feel hopeless.
Things have been getting worse from the lyme. The numbness and nerve sensations are getting worse. The other day the left side of my spine was completely numb from my lower back all the way up to my neck. I’m taking 1600mg of Gabapentin(Neurontin) three times a day and still having numbness and the sensations. Last time I saw my doctor I told her I’d started taking two tablets three times a day and she basically said to do what works. She’s afraid to put me on anything, and wants me to stay away from anything that can cause serotonin syndrome because it would likely kill me if it happened again. She only mentioned 5 or 6 times at my last visit that it’s usually fatal, and that I was lucky. It’s probably been building up over the years and the cymbalta just pushed it over the edge, still I feel paranoid now. I’m hoping I’ll feel better soon. I’m tired of feeling this ill and tired of being useless. I’m making myself do a look tomorrow, I guess it would be later today. I didn’t do my last challenge because I was too sick. I don’t want to miss it again. Anyways. Enough crap. I leave you with a cat picture. After all it’s Caturday!