Super fantastic news! I will be getting a camera soon! A friend of a friend is giving me their old Canon DSLR so I should have it in a couple of weeks! *stops freaking out* Seriously I am beyond amazed and so thankful. So thankful!
Also I am finally getting to Chemawa in the morning. Leaving at 6:30am!
EDIT: I got an email back from Ritz Camera. They told me to replace my camera body. I tried fixing it but it still doesn’t work.
Thank you to everyone who sent positive thoughts and prayers and whatever else. The manager decided to give us a $75 fee as long as we pay it today. I went to DHS yesterday and the person I met with said she would have my benefits on the card today. If it wasn’t on by 12pm to call her. It’s still not on. I called and left a message. I am getting ready to go in. I have to have it today.
Also I have to go to a workshop tomorrow for TANF. And then Friday I can finally go to Chemawa to get this tooth pulled. Now the infection has spread to a tooth above it and it hurts like a bitch. I’ve been taking massive amounts of Ibuprofen to try to keep the pain down a little. My right eye is all blurry and has a lot of pressure on it. Cannot wait until Friday. And my camera broke on Monday while I was taking photos of Fumiko’s birthday party. I am going to try to fix it today but I don’t know if it will work.
So I just got back from DHS. They didn’t transfer my account to Milwaukie until this morning. So the money won’t be on the card until tomorrow morning. She gave me a letter to give to the manager. *sigh* I am so tired. I don’t even know what to do anymore. Also thank you to the two people who sent me money on paypal. That was so kind of you and I really appreciate it. It will be going to the $75 fee we have to pay. Thank you so much.
I am going to try to fix my camera now. Wish me luck.
Some of you may know that because of circumstances that happened last year the kiddos and I are on TANF. I get $506 a month in money. $500 of that goes to our rent which leaves us in $6 cash. It goes onto my EBT card on the 1st of the month and our SNAP(food) portion goes on it on the 3rd. We share a two bedroom apartment with my mom. The kiddos and I have one room and my mom has the other. Well Saturday we went to get rent money and there was nothing on my card. We rushed home and checked online and nothing. This morning(Monday) I dropped Fumiko off at school at 8am and went to DHS. I found out that my TANF ended in December. I had no letters no phone calls, but in December I received my renewal application for SNAP. So the DHS worker spends about 30 minutes trying to figure out what happened. It turns out that they had my home address listed as our current address, but the mailing address was our old POBOX. I also found out that in May when my DHS worker in Oregon City told me she sent my case to the Milwaukie office where we moved to. She told me she updated my address and everything was fine. It turns out she never sent my case to Milwaukie. >.< And when she updated my address she didn't update the mailing address. So there was nothing they could do about it. But because it was closed I could re-apply at the Mikwaukie office where I was. So I quickly filled it out and handed it back in. Waited an hour for an appointment and they couldn't get me in today. So I have an appointment for 9am. My mom talked to the manager and he told her if we don't have rent in by tomorrow that we will get a 72 hour notice. I have no idea if they'll be able to reinstate it tomorrow. It may take a couple of days. They even said while I was there that it was their fault the application renewal was sent to another address. I asked why they sent my SNAP paperwork to the correct address but sent the TANF paperwork to another address and she couldn't give me an answer. I am beyond devastated. The kids and I were homeless at the beginning of the year and it's not something I ever want to do again. If you could send any prayers, thoughts, positive energy, voodoo magic that would be really awesome. I am hoping and praying that tomorrow they will come through because I don't know what will happen if we can't pay rent tomorrow. I really wish my disability would come through. This has been a huge struggle and I don't need anymore curve balls thrown at me right now. Sorry for the wall of text, I am just very upset and I needed to get this out and need some positive thoughts. It was really hard to keep it together today for Fumiko's birthday part and I am just mentally and physically exhausted. Thank you.
ALL THE SICK! Ugh. Still not doing well from the cortisone shots. My heart is not happy and my bloodsugar has sky-rocketed. I also found out I have a UTI. So much fun. I had lots of posts planned but I have been out of commission. My chest was settled down a bit today, so that’s good. Fumiko has been home sick with an awful sore throat and fevers. I’m not sure if my fevers have been from the UTI or if I’m getting what Fumiko has.
So I have been watching Orange is the New Black. So far I like it a lot. It’s funny. Hopefully tomorrow I can do some swatches or at least get a review up.
Dude, it’s been awhile since I really talked about my life on here. This year has been hard so far, last year wasn’t great either. There was radio silence for awhile and I’ll tell you why. Last year my husband left me. He did it in a cruel manner. I haven’t had contact with him since January. With the separation came a bunch of bull honkey and we ended up having to leave the house we lived in for several years. The kiddos and I had no where to go. We were “homeless” for awhile. We stayed at a homeless ranch over an hour away from where we were living for a couple of weeks. Then we had to leave. We ended up staying with some friends of my mom. There were 7 of us in a 2 bedroom trailer. Ouch. But we had a place to live. I ended up going on TANF and we are on SNAP for food. Sorry if this bounces all over the place.
My bloodsugar has been wacky this year, more so than usual from the stress. It goes from too high to way too low. My bloodsugar dropped to 50 today and I’m not dealing with it very well. Ick. Anyways. I’ve also been going through the whole filing for disability thing. I actually just sent in an appeal today. But yes we had a place to stay. It was hard, things were tight, everyone was stressed. We got really, really lucky. My mom was staying with someone in an apartment complex. She ended up explaining to the manager our situation and an apartment came available in May. So the kids and I are sharing a 2 bedroom apartment with my mom right now. Which is also hard. My mom and I don’t have a good relationship. The kids were diagnosed with autism last year also. A whole lot happened last year. Ugh.
So we have a place to live right now. All of my TANF goes to rent. Buying pretties is WAY out of the question right now. Which makes me sad. ALL THE PRETTIES! So things are stressful right now, there is major friction between my mom and I. But we have a place to live. Just hoping and praying disability comes through sooner rather than later. Patience is hard yo. Today we got the kids all checked in at their schools. Because of no money and TANF going to rent we went to a program that gives backpacks, school supplies and a clothes closet. So the kiddos have most of their school supplies. I’m not quite sure how we’ll get the rest, but we’ll make due. They need shoes. Ugh. We tried to find shoes for them while we were there, but they had nothing in Sascha’s size and everything in Fumiko’s were in just as bad shape as the shoes she already has. So we left empty handed as far as shoes go. But hey, they got school supplies.
There have been many doctor and therapy appointments for me and they continue to be ongoing. The kiddos have their fair share of therapy appointments as well. Fumiko has gone from being completely silent about her fathers absence to saying things like “I want to kill him. My daddy hates my love and I hate his love.”. How in the hell do you respond to that. It’s been hard. And Sascha blames himself despite me telling him a billion times none of this is his fault at all. It’s a delicate situation. Time will heal. We just have to be patient. I want our own place and the kids want it just as bad. I keep telling myself and them to be patient. Things will change. This isn’t permanent. We need a healthy environment. Very bad.
So I’ve been swatching like a mad man, trying to keep myself busy when I can. The insomnia is crazy and often times I don’t sleep. We are trying to find something that works, but I’m limited on what I can take because of the seratonin syndrome. Depression meds are not helping. I have appointments to go in and hopefully try something else. I still go through periods of sick as hell and oh hey I can sort of function today. But things will be okay, yo. The kids are super excited for school. They have some friends in the apartment complex we live in. Fumiko even has a friend right next door. It’s been good for them. So I shall continue swatching and maybe even start writing about our boring lives. I have lots of samples to try and review too. So you’ll see lots of little mini reviews.
Well that was rather long. I said more than I planned. Well here are some pictures of Fumiko. She is proud of her faerie dress and the fact that she finally lost a couple of teeth! Also my nearly bare faced face from today. I didn’t sleep. Eyes are bloodshot and hair was pulled back in a pony-tale. I just haphazardly put on brows and used Mannequin from Glamour Doll Eyes and their new Bad Seed gel eyeliner and a little bit of Unicorn from Fyrinnae on the inner and outer corners and finally mascara. That’s it. I used a face mask a few days back and it broke my face out and irritated it. So I didn’t want to put anything else on my face. So excuse my poor skin. I would have photos of Sascha but I’m going to have to tie him down to something to get some photos. Silly boy. So yes. There. Happy thoughts! I’ve also been lucky to have my best friend through all of this. She was there for me when things were really rough and I am so grateful for her friendship. I’ve also made a few new friendships on this here interwebz that have been really nice.
She lost two teeth in one night.
And she’s proud of it!
She’s a faerie!
She’s a faerie!