So on Friday I had a heart attack. Fast forward to yesterday when I went in to see my therapist/doctor. My therapist was worried and traced down my doctor who had the nurse call 911. They got there in minutes, They did an ekg and it was showing tachycardia yet again. I gave my purse and phone to Kharizma and they told her where I was going. This was my first ambulance ride and let me tell you I can do without. They put an iv in my left wrist and hooked me up to another ekg. On the way to the hospital they gave me 2 nitro and that helped a little but I still had pain and pressure in my chest and down my left arm.

Kharizma got to Providence before we did. It was a storm of taking blood, asking questions, taking my clothes off and I can’t really remember all that happened. They put a regular iv on the inside of my arm about halfway between my wrist and elbow. They gave me a shot of something which sped up my heart instead of slowing it down. A little bit later they gave me another shot which seemed to help slow my heart down. I won’t give you a blow by blow because it’s boring and pointless, so I’ll just say I hate going to the hospital.

I got home last night, I only stayed in overnight. But ugh. 11ish holes later, chest xrays, ekg’s, ecg’s, a catscan of my chest and dye injected, an angio and various other things that I can’t remember. And everyone tells me they don’t know why, there are no blockages or damage. So they don’t know why it happened. They don’t know why my pulse is up or certainly why we’ve been fighting with it since January.

I have to explain my lyme disease to everyone in order to explain my constant pain and the twitching, shaking and spasms. And then they stare at me like they have no idea what I just said, or stare at me and say “interesting” “huh”. It’s incredibly frustrating to be told the tests came back fine and we don’t know, over and over. It’s even more frustrating to have a doctor tell me that sometimes there aren’t any answers and things happen and they never know why.

So yeah. I have no answers at all. I’m tired and exhausted and I think I picked something up from the hospital. My lymph nodes are all swollen and sore and my body hurts worse today than it normally does. My stomach is cramping and has shooting pains and I have a fever. Yay. So that’s my bitchy post for awhile. I apologize if this post is all over the place. My brain hasn’t been functioning well for awhile, and it’s been even worse since Friday.

So it appears that my pancreas is starting to work again. My bloodsugar has been staying below 250 most of the time. That’s better than over 600, yeah? I’m still waiting on the results for the holster monitor. I hope they can figure out why my pulse is staying up. I’ve been dealing with tachycardia for months now and my doctor has no idea what to do with me. I need to go down to Salem to visit Chemawa. My doctor says I need to get there around 7-730am so I can sit and wait for a cancellation so I can get in to have my teeth looked at. Since I have diabetes they’ll continue to see me and let me schedule appointments. I just need to get in once to begin with. I brush my teeth and plaque starts to build up within a couple of hours. Between the lyme disease and the dry mouth from my medications, well my teeth are royally screwed.

Tomorrow I go in to see both of my therapists. Should be fun. Finances are still shit. Kai is still getting minimum wage. They started training him for sales last week but he hasn’t been officially promoted yet. Also I stopped the Abilify it seemed to be making my sleep worse. Though now that I’ve stopped it I feel panicky. My doctor doesn’t want me on anything, but I need something. I know when I need help and I need help. I can’t take SSRI’s so I don’t know if they’re going to find something that helps. I keep seeing myself years down the road still breaking down and crying at the drop of a pin. I don’t want that. And now I’m crying. *sigh* CRY ALL THE TEARS.

My actual blog/life posts seem to be getting less frequent. I need to fix that. First thing I want to do is tell you about a new mobile app site called appSmitten(If you click this affiliate link I get a dollar!). They’re working with BlogHer to get the word out. It’s a nice little app site that hand picks recommendations for you.

When I signed up it actually allowed me to choose when I want to receive newsletters from them. I chose daily to see what they have to send. They have Angry Birds, some hello kitty game apps and some interesting looking photo apps. I found Giraffe’s Matching Zoo for my iPhone which I promptly looked up on the app store and downloaded it for Fumiko. So if you haven’t already go check them out and see if they have anything you’re interested in.

Now then, I have to see my therapist and psychologist tomorrow. Claire is picking me up and there was something about cake pops and her birthday on Thursday. I’ll be able to pick up my medications that I couldn’t get on Friday because the pharmacy was closed. Friday I was given Bactrim DS to hold me over until I can get back in. Then she’s giving me something else? It’s supposed to be expensive and she said they don’t give it out often. We still haven’t gotten rid of the sinus thing, and I still have congestion in my lungs from pneumonia and had a bladder infection starting up, which was odd because it started after I started taking the Abilify. I’m also on Vistaril 25mg to help with sleep, but it isn’t. I signed up to a program to see if I qualify, if I do I can see the heart specialist and endocrinologist for free.

I’ve been making earrings, so you should go buy them. And there is the blog sale I’m slowly adding items to. I’m up to three gabapentin three times a day now. The numbness/tingling/pain is getting worse and happening in more areas of my body. I think my pancreas is starting to work again. I’ve been able to skip taking insulin because my blood sugar has been 149-167 and occasionally around 250. So hooray. Now I must go check my blood sugar.