Today I’m Tired

Really, really tired. The pain pills are nice, but I’m doing too much and once they wear off I feel dead. Considering I only have enough for bedtime for 28 days, or throughout the day for 14 days or less, yeah. It seems like my day was a heck of a lot busier than it really was. I took Kai to work, then ended up going to Fred Meyer to get some kale and fruit. My mom made vegetable soup for me. It’s delicious. It has kale, sweet potato, celery, green bell pepper, carrot, and onion in it. Nom, nom, nom. I only wish it had some little white beans and okra. Mmmm.

I worked on labels for Andrea of My Pretty Zombie and Susan of Darling Girl Cosmetics in between. Doing bottom jar labels for Andrea, and I did solid lotion bar and overall body balm labels for Susan. I likes them. I picked Kai up from work at 6pm and went to pick up some raw honey, then stopped at the salvation army to look for a decent dresser, then went to walmart because my mom wanted me to look for something which I can’t remember at the moment. Though while at Walmart there were a couple of ladies arguing about diet stuff, and arguing quite loudly. They were going back and forth on whether or not to buy some walmart thing or sensa weight loss. I think I may live under a rock. I’ve not heard of sensa yet.

Anyways. We had some vegetable soup and beef for dinner. I had a mini moscato wine bottle and I feel like I’ve had an entire normal bottle. Holy cow. Everything has worn off so I’m exhausted and really sore. My head is killing me. I thought a little bit of wine might help me relax, however it’s just made my headache worse. Guess I’ll go another few months without alcohol.

Anyways, here are the labels I did for Susan.

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Random Things on Friday

So yesterday my mom and I went into Bi-Mart to see how much it would cost for a membership. It was only $5 for a lifetime membership! So we did it. While I was looking around the plants I found Red Basil, only it looks like a blackened purple not red. It was AWESOME and so pretty! There were about 10 pots. I had to have it. It smelled amazing and I kept thinking about it and debating over it for the rest of the day and into today. So I was telling my mom I thought I was going to go get some red basil when we got paid and she told me to go get it today. So she gave me some money and I went to get a couple for myself and one for Kharizma. She loves purple! :d So I get there and literally there are only 2 plants left. lol So I grabbed them both! While I was depositing money at the bank for my mom I had sent Kharizma a messsage saying I was going to Bi-Mart to get my purple basil! Then I asked if she was home because I had planned on dropping it off to her, but she wasn’t. :(

So then I just decided I’d drop it off and leave it by her back door on the way home. Well I didn’t have to because while I was checking out Kharizma showed up. :d So I was like well I guess I’ll just give you your basil now. haha So anyways! Now I have awesome purple basil and can’t wait to use it. While I was browsing Bi-Mart yesterday I came across some awesome fire pits. Seriously if I had $100 I’d totally buy one. I want a fire pit so bad. I’d love to be able to sit in the backyard around a nice fire and roast marshmallows and such.

And tonight we are going to Sushi & Maki! YES! Kinon wants to see if he can get Tifanny to like sushi. xd Nom, nom, nom!

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Doctors visit numero I’m not really sure anymore…

Soooo… I had a follow up with my doctor today. Apparently it was to talk about the metformin and to give me the vitamin D. We got there literally 5 minutes before check-in because of the awful traffic and hitting every red light on the way oh and it took us 20minutes just to get to the gas pump at the gas station… After I checked in I went back to the pharmacy to pick up my prescriptions because they would be closing in 45 minutes. I find out that they started charging me for the Gabapentin last time I got them refilled. No one told me and I owed them for the last time I picked up the diabetic testing strips and lancets. So instead of owning them $30 I had to borrow money to pay them the last $10. I know it’s a drop in the bucket compared to what others pay for their prescriptions but it’s gas and bill money for us. When I looked at the tags that they gave me I found that last month my Gabapentin cost $36 for the 100 pills and insurance covered all but $5. This month however? $146 and some change for the exact same prescription and insurance covered $141. I’m a little confused. How in the hell did the cost drastically change? Is there like a nationwide shortage of Gabapentin all of a sudden?

Anyways. They gave me my vitamin D, or Drisdol. I’m to take 1 caplet every Monday and Thursday for 8 weeks. They’re 50,000 iu caplets. Hopefully it works. Last time my vitamin D checked low I was on 70,000 iu every for 3 months and my vitamin D barely went up at all. It took less than 5 minutes to get my prescriptions. So by the time we sat back down it was 4:17pm. My appointment was at 4 :3 0p, check-in was 4:15pm. So Kai and I sit down and wait. We look up at the clock and it’s almost 5pm. The waiting area was completely empty and so was the parking lot when we pulled up. So Kai double-checks with me to make sure my appointment was really at 4 :3 0. Yep it was. So we keep waiting. I eventually got called in shortly after 5 :3 0pm. By this time I’m really annoyed, mostly because my back was already spasming and my legs were shaking all the way up to my hips and my calf muscles were aching and had shooting pains.

So we get in and they ask the usual questions: are you native, do you smoke, are you diabetics, do you drink, do you use recreational drugs, when was the last time you ate, why are you here? The nurse takes my blood pressure, pulse, temperature and bloodsugar. It was 207. I told her I was there I thought to discuss the metformin, but I wasn’t sure. So she leaves and the doctor comes in a few minutes later. I start telling her that the metformin isn’t getting my blood sugar below 200, and that’s with taking double doses, and that also my kidneys have started hurting since I started it. So I stopped it a few days ago. At this point her concern was not the fact that my KIDNEYS WERE HURTING, but that I wasn’t taking the metformin anymore and the metformin couldn’t possibly be causing me kidney pain because it’s not known to do that… WHAT?! Okay, I don’t care if it’s not known to cause kidney damage, my kidneys hurt and it started after I got on the metformin. So instead of her being all “well why don’t you try staying off the metformin for a week or so and see if the kidney pain eases up.” She tells me to start taking it again. Am I going to start taking it again? If my kidney pain doesn’t ease up while being off of it then I’ll start it again. But not until I see whether or not it’s causing the pain. I also told her that my bloodsugar monitor has shown positive for ketones for over half of my tests in the last two weeks. She argued with me about whether or not my bloodsugar monitor could check for ketones. -.-

Then I bring up my heart, again, for the 3rd appointment in a row. Even Kai tells her that I can’t even get up and go to the bathroom part of the time without my heart going nuts. I gave her examples, like when I wiped down the stove, when I went downstairs to the garage to get a towel and back up, and when I made waffles earlier. Then she asks me if I think it’s related to stress… Cause wiping down the stove and getting a towel out of the garage and making waffles is goddamn stressful.

NO I do not think it’s from stress. I swear she asked me the same question last time. At this point I was seriously visualizing me leaping off the table and strangling her to within an inch of her life. But instead I said no, I didn’t think it was stress, it happens more often when I’m doing something physical but also happens when I’m not doing anything at all. Then I tell her that the pain and numbness and pins and needles and all of that crap is getting worse. She at that point asked for like the 7th time if I saw a neurologist at which point I told her I couldn’t afford it. Then she asked if I would be willing to see a heart specialist… to which I said I would love to, but I can’t afford to. So she finally decided it might be a good idea to do an ekg test and take a urine sample and draw some blood to do some tests. What tests? I have no idea, but at least she’s doing something. So the ekg came out normal, and my urine test showed no ketones, but had sugar in it… So I’m fine. She says my heart is fine, but IF it happens again to go to the ER. Okay then… Then she told me yet again that you can only test for ketones in urine. And I said that every page I looked up online said it could be tested in urine and blood. Then she said that me poking my finger wasn’t enough blood to be tested for ketones. Then she said that besides ketones were unusual in people with type 2 diabetes. And I said I know and started to tell her when it was possible to have it in people with type 2 diabetes AND SHE SAYS “it only really happens when someone has an illness”. I seriously thought Kai was going to fall off his chair. Instead it gave her a goofy look and pointed both of his hands at me. My only thought at that point was “why in the hell do you think I’m seeing you?”. *sigh*

So Kai brought up several issues with pain and sensations and it just seem to go in one ear and out the other. She finally albeit reluctantly gave me an Rx for 28 Vicodin. But I had to take a urine analysis to make sure I wasn’t abusing drugs. And I have to see her in 4 weeks again for I don’t even know what. I just feel like she doesn’t believe me. She treats me like I’m a crazy hypochondriac and I’m beyond frustrated. It gives me no hope for seeing another doctor there. She’s not putting two and two together at all. My bloodsugar was normal before the Gabapentin, I go on it and my bloodsugar is magically staying above 200, she doubles the dose and now it’s staying between 250 and as high as 488 so far. I’m having no kidney trouble, she starts me on metformin and my kidneys magically start to hurt. Ugh.

Oh look I’m really annoyed and stressed and frustrated AND MY HEART ISN’T FREAKING OUT. -.- However it did start going crazy when I got up to go help Fumiko go potty. I think I probably forgot some stuff, but I’m not sure. Overall the extra cost of the medications caught me off-guard, but it wasn’t a huge ordeal, visit with the doctor was really disappointing and stressful. I hope that the doctor I see on the 29th will listen to me and actually work with me.

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Where did all this tired come from

I can barely keep my eyes open. Three o’clock can’t get here fast enough. Nap time for Fumiko and I think nap time for me. I took Kai to work this morning, mailed a package, then stopped by Dawn’s to get her cat carrier. Sushi has an appointment Thursday morning to get spayed. Hooray. I had a nice cup of coffee with Dawn and she gave me a starter from her Black Locust tree. Hopefully I don’t kill it.

Kai’s father’s day meal was a success. I made baked teriyaki salmon, fried asparagus and rice. It was tasty. Though I think I may be allergic to asparagus. Which kind of sucks since I finally found a way that I like it. Oh well. I finally saw the show Extreme Couponing the other night. All I can say is what a damn crazy show. lol I look at coupons every now and then, but I can gladly say I’m no where near extreme. xd Someone shared this website that has sears coupons the other day. If you’re looking for shoes or need a new mattress I’d take a look. I wish we needed a new bed and had some extra money, because I’d sure be looking at some of their beds. Unfortunately for me our mattresses are fine, outside of being too hard. :(

I suppose I shall go count the 10 minutes before Fumiko goes down for a nap…

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New Forums & a Note!

First, the note. I haven’t been feeling well lately. This past week due to some treatment changes I’ve been herxing, not horribly bad, but bad enough. I haven’t been able to get much done and am behind on several blog posts. A couple of days ago I randomly broke out in hives and an extremely itchy, annoying rash all over my body. My head literally touched my pillow and bam I started to itch all over. It didn’t show up well but you can see some of the bumps and rash here on my face. I can only assume it’s from the herxing. I’ve experienced it before, but only on my face and neck, it’s not happened all over my body. I’m still dealing with it. I still have itchy hives and it’s driving me batty. It’s not quite as bad as it was that night, but it’s goddamn annoying. I’ve mostly been exhausted to the point that I literally can’t keep my eyes open. I fell asleep today looking at forum themes. WTF My pain has been back and forth, but my heart has been especially painful and anything I do seems to stress it. The past couple of weeks over half of my bloodsugar results have been positive for ketones as well. Awesome. I guess I’ve felt like I have a really extreme flu. I’ve also noticed lately that my old issues with asthma appear to be rearing their ugly head again. Oof.

So yes, I am behind. I have swatches to post, some reviews to post, fotd’s, etc. I also have some labels to work on. I just haven’t been able to summon enough energy and willpower or consciousness to work on them. On that note…

I added forums to my website. Hooray. I’ve been working on them the past couple of days. It’s sort of been my brain fade in-between dozing off and taking showers/baths. You may find them at mb.toxid-lotus.net. I’m still working on the theme. There are colors I need to change and images I need to replace/edit, but it’s fully functioning! There are already a handful of indie owners that have joined and are participating and other bloggers as well! There is a buy/trade/sell section as well as a section for RAMM. It’s not limited to just makeup and beauty. I wanted it to be open to everyone, so people can make friends and get to know each other.

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