Fumiko turned 4 yesterday and today I’m 30. Made white tulip cupcakes with pureed strawberries and homemade whipped cream for Fumiko yesterday. I ended up going to sleep early last night because I wasn’t feeling well and woke up around 4am really sick and ended up throwing up. I still feel ill. Ugh.

The weather has been a little wonky. It’s hot, cold, hot, cold, hot. This morning it was freezing cold when I went to the bank. I came home tried to go back to sleep and ended up failing miserably. Kai, Fumiko and I left to go grocery shopping at about 4pm. I had put my jeans and hoodie back on thinking it was still freezing. Nope it was extremely hot. I wish mother nature would make up her mind already. I’d love it if you let the weather stay cold.

I miss Sascha. I don’t know if I say it that much. I sure think about it a lot. His birthday is coming up on November 2nd. This will be the first birthday I’ve missed which makes me sad. Kai and I picked him up a small birthday gift today. We got him a Lego Hero Factory, Surge Bionicle. When I talked to him on Sunday he said one of the things he wanted was some legos. So we got him that and a $20 gift card to Target. That way he can pick something out that he really wants. They had some super cute Paul Frank wrapping paper as well. Hopefully Sascha enjoys it. I can’t believe he’s going to be 9 in less than a month. I wanted to get him a Squishable Android. But unfortunately we couldn’t afford the extra money for it right now. So my plan is to get it for him for christmas. I miss him. So does Fumiko. She’s talking more now and has been saying “Bother come home?” “Shasha come home now?”. Which is cute and breaks my heart at the same time. I keep telling her he’ll be home after school. She knows his birthday is coming up, and keeps getting one of the cupcake tins and says “Make Shasha cake?”. I’m half tempted to make him some birthday cupcakes anyways, just because maybe it’ll make Fumiko feel better. I don’t know we’ll see. I have to talk to Kharizma also and find out how we’re going to do the cupcakes for her wedding. I also need to get some cake flour and find a bigger frosting tip.

This morning my mom and I went to the bank to close some accounts and a safety deposit box, which we meant to do awhile ago. For some reason an old business account which had issues with theft was never closed? So we closed that, I closed my old bank account, and we turned in the keys for the deposit box.

I’ve been having some issues sleeping. By issues I mean I can’t sleep. I’ve been falling asleep finally between 5 and 8am. Which is excruciating. I’ve always been a night owl. I don’t know why but I’ve never been able to get my biological clock to need sleep during normal hours. I’ve tried so many times going to bed at a normal hour only to lay in bed tossing and turning and uncomfortable until very late. Well lately it’s been really bad and it’s driving me nuts. I’ve tried various over the counter sleep aids, both natural and not. Nothing seems to work. The non natural sleep aids make me feel horribly hungover the next day and don’t actually help me sleep. I used to be able to fall asleep by 2am at the latest, but it’s gotten worse over the last few months. So have the migraines. Really though, who in their right mind has the most energy at 2 in the morning? Ugh. So I’ve been trying to get things done around the house and online late at night. Housework is a little difficult since everyone else is sleeping. Well most everyone else. Ben stays up late too, he just hides in his room like some creepy hermit.

I will say some of the late night tv is… strange. I had no idea Friday the 13th had a series. I caught part of an episode the other night. It was about some cursed quilt and some Amish cult. It was really creepy. I’ve also seen a large variety of substance abuse shows, which I have to admit have been pretty informative and interesting. I saw a show about inhalant abuse and also watched some things about opiate detox. I also saw Billy the Exterminator for the first time the other night. Which I must say was pretty awesome and disgusting at the same time.

First off, why is Fumiko so… cranky today? Second, why does our wireless router hate me so much? I wanted to write a blog post last night and the stupid thing would not connect. For the life of me I spent two hours fiddling with it and resetting it and trying to make it work! Ugh. I ended up going to bed annoyed. Anyways. Been a busy week. We had guests here for Sascha’s birthday for a week. Sascha’s dad David, and his wife Dianna flew in from Michigan to be here for his birthday. He had a blast I think. He got to go to the coast and visit the aquarium one of the days they were here. He got lots of goodies for his birthday. Tons of new Bakugan stuff, some clothes, a new Nintendo DS Lite, and a couple of games for it and some badass new Converse. Gray with gray skulls. They’re hot if I do say so myself. I made potato salad and chocolate mousse cake with homemade whipped cream, and Kai did his barbecue and teriyaki chicken kebabs. Yum.

I ended up cleaning up his birthday mess Tuesday after I dropped David and Dianna off at the airport. Holy mess. Eep. Our anniversary is coming up on the 12th. Yay! Three years! Then shortly after that we’re heading to California for two weeks to see my dad and step mom and Kai’s family and some friends. Kai hasn’t seen his best friends in quite some time. So hopefully we can find time to meet up with them. Maybe? Seeing my dad and step mom will be bittersweet. They’re not doing well right now, both financially and health-wise. We’re really concerned that this might be the last time we see Jeannie.

Well, must make lunch and get back to Sascha’s schoolwork. Private post coming later hopefully.