I swear this house has it out for us. If it’s not one thing, it’s another. The garbage disposal is borked. Not only that but apparently the electrical socket under the sink that it plugs into has shorted out and no longer works and in the process apparently shorted out the garbage disposal to. *sigh* Earlier this week the toilet in our bathroom started leaking. We already can’t use our shower because it leaks into the garage and we can’t afford the cost to fix it. So for now we uh won’t have a garbage disposal, which really isn’t that big of a deal. It’s not that much more work to put stuff in the trash, it’s just a little more convenient to have it. So we’ll be getting a sink strainer thinger to catch anything that is missed. Hopefully at some point we can get the electrical fixed and get a new garbage disposal.

We also have to pick up caulking to caulk where the bathtub meets the floor. It wasn’t sealed when we moved in and damaged from water, so the floor was a little warped. Kinon is gonna be picking up a caulking gun and some white caulk to fix it. Oh and we need to replace the caulking around the bathtub too. I told Kai and Kinon last night we’re having a wallpaper party. They’re gonna take the wallpaper off the kitchen wall and I’ll make them a nice dinner… They didn’t seem to go for it. haha I really need help with it though, my arm starts hurting crazy bad after a few minutes and my heart starts going nuts when I try to peel the wallpaper off. I want to paint the kitchen a bright blue-ish color as you can see above. We need to also go rent a carpet cleaner to clean the floors on Wednesday. Will probably do that after my doctor appointment. They’re drawing more blood for I’m not actually sure what.

I’m starting to get back into the swing of things, yay. After having Fumiko I sort of lost interest in blogging and pretty much everything else. Not to mention getting a virus and losing almost 4 months worth of photography was depressing. I still haven’t gotten back into photography as much as I’ve wanted to. It kind of fell to the way side when I lost all the photos of Fumiko and Sascha’s first hallow’s eve together, her first christmas, and first birthday. But life goes on.

Who knows how things are going to work out with Gerry. He’s never truly liked us. While I do feel for him because I wouldn’t wish dementia on my worst enemy, I do feel as though he’s brought it on himself. We’ve heard horror stories about him and how he treated his previous wives and children. The dementia coupled by his already explosive and angry nature does not go over well. My mom feels as though it’s her obligation to care for him. I keep reminding her that her obligation flies out the window when her own life and well being are at stake. If she was much younger and healthier herself, she might be able to care for him. But now? No. She’s so stressed and scared right now, we’re all worried that she may have another heart attack. She talked to the lawyer from eldercare, that only stressed her out more. They want her life’s history since she’s been with Gerry. Details on all income and spending. Which they don’t have much of. They were never people who documented or saved things like that. Not to mention the cost. It will cost all that she has and more. I told her that he needs to either stay with his daughter in Michigan, or get on Medicaid and find a home. He’s not safe in that home. Not for himself or the home. He’s already been destructive to it and they are only renting.

He needs someone to watch him and make sure he’s okay. My mom isn’t capable of doing that. I will not do that. He’s not my father and it’s not my responsibility. He has six children who are perfectly capable of taking care of him. They need to do so. So in the end, I don’t know how everything is going to work out. But I know he doesn’t belong with my mom, he belongs somewhere else where he has the care and attention he needs. Somewhere else so my mom feels safe. This whole situation sucks. And it’s made worse by the fact that Gerry won’t cooperate, which goes hand in hand with dementia. My mom needs to calm down and rest before she has a heart attack. She’s stressed out of her mind and in turn is stressing me out on top of everything else I have to do. Halp!

The Guayaki Pure Heart Yerba Mate tea is amazing for kids with adhd. It makes a huge difference for Sascha. I give him a cup before we start his schooling. He’s able to focus so much better with it. I also found a website that has free tools for learning to read, it’s awesome. Sascha started on it earlier today and loves it. He’s able to do it on his own without me helping him, which is awesome. I’m hoping in the next week or so he can go on to the next area for actually learning to read, instead of just learning the sounds and vowels. He’s getting there. Yoga is also helping. For PE right now we’re doing the yoga video to help him be still and quiet. It’s a little tough for him but he’s doing it. So we’re proud of him.

Have I mentioned I can’t wait to go to California. I wish we didn’t have to drive though. As much as I know we’ll need the transportation down there, I don’t want to drive. It’s too bad we can’t find super cheap travel deals. They’d have to be practically free though. I don’t think that’s going to happen. I’m waiting to hear back from the lady I messaged about Fumiko’s faerie costume. I hope she can do it. It’ll be so cute. Then we’ll just have to find one for Sascha. Also I’m continuing to tweak my layout until I can really finish it. But that will happen when my computer is back up and running. So soon I hope. Until then, things shall be fixed ever so slowly.

Now I need to go get stuff ready to make taco’s for dinner. Yummy.

Barely… Haha. It seems I am allergic to penicillin. At least that’s what we think. My dentist gave me some because I need to get a root canal and they thought there might be some infection. I’ve been horribly sick since I started taking it. I’m starting to feel better, but not by much. It seems to vary. Here’s to hoping I feel better soon.

My mom had a heart attack recently. She was in the hospital for a few days. She’s recovering. Slowly, but recovering. They found out that her heart is severely enlarged, and so thick they’re surprised she hasn’t had a stroke yet. This is where the “I told you so!” comes in. I’ve been telling her for a couple of years now to take better care of herself and take her supplements. I hope now she will.

Here comes the biggie.

We’ve decided to move to California. Yes that’s right. Us moving depends on several factors. Mostly a place to live. Since Kai has no credit and I have bad credit(Thanks Mom) we’re waiting/hoping his Grandfather will have a place we can rent. He currently doesn’t have anything available. But we’re hoping. We wanted to move this summer, for various reasons I won’t go into now. But I don’t think that will be possible. So we’re hoping for next summer. Kai also has to find out if he can transfer to a GNC in/near Vallejo. He wants to wait until we know we have a place to live though. He’s going to start looking at other jobs beforehand as well to try to have something lined up in case things with GNC don’t work out. We both think it would be better for us and our kids to be by Kai’s family. We want them to know what it’s like to grow up with a close family which I’ve never had. He tells me it’s great. Over all it’s gonna be a huge change. We’d just gotten used to living here. We were also hoping to use our tax return for the move, however it looks like we’ll be owing more than we get back. :/ We need to take our taxes into someone to see if we did something wrong.

Overall, we’re okay, minor bumps along the road right now, but we’re okay. We’re going to be taking Sascha out of the Portland Waldorf School. We just can’t afford to pay his tuition. It breaks my heart, even Kai is not happy about it. But there isn’t anything we can do. We just can’t afford it. We’ll put him in home schooling for a year longer if needed. Until we know he’s ready to go to a regular school. Then we’ll see what happens. Hopefully in the future we can afford to send him back to a Waldorf school. It’s been so amazing for him.

A side note, we had to take out coffee table out to the garage… A little f=Fumi-kitty jumped off of it… When Kai’s mom visited Fumiko discovered she could climb up on the couch. Well now she can climb up on anything. She’s fast too. Hai paranoia.

Anyways. I hope to start updating more frequently. Besides the fact that I need to start doing paid posts again I do miss blogging.